I am no blogger

I will admit, I am no blogger. I will tell myself to update this blog but then the day goes by and then the next day and the next. Most everyone keeps up-to-date on the surrogacy via Facebook or Instagram, but I really want to have a blog to look back on and reminisce, especially with the big day fast approaching. So I am going to try to keep up this time (I have said that before!) but I am on leave from work now so I have no excuse, right?!

Today I am 33 weeks and 1day along with these Surro boys. Both are weighing in at about 5lbs each. Now, correct me if I’m wrong but to my knowledge twins are typically born weighing about 5lbs but here I am, with over a month left hauling around this tanker truck of a 10+lb belly! I am thrilled to know the boys are healthy and growing so well in there. I feel accomplished, like “yeah, I did that. I grow humans hecka well!”  But let me tell you, carrying two 5lb little boys around is NOT for the weak. Comfort is nothing but a mystical vague memory. Just a simple walk to the kitchen leaves me huffing and puffing, a trip to the grocery store ends with me sitting on the couch for 20mins before I can even get to putting the groceries away. I expected this, but I am just not used to being and feeling so helpless. I like to do things myself (I am reminded of my three year old who insists on doing everything herself even if it takes 10x as long and ends up wrong lol I guess she gets it from her mama) I don’t like to point fingers and ask for help but I have learned to ask for help and thankfully my 7 year old daughter is the best helper ever. I have developed a wicked case of carpal tunnel in my right wrist, its pretty bad but I am happy to know it will vanish shortly after birth. Even with all my complaints I still love being pregnant and carrying twins is a blast. Being able to tell their movements apart and getting a little glimpse into their personalities is so much fun! Not to mention the reactions I get these days; there is the big eyed whisper of “Oh my god, she is REALLY pregnant!”, there’s people asking me when I am due with a terrified look as if I’m about to gush my bag of water all over them right then and there, there’s the “oh god bless you” or the sarcastic good luck calls when they find out its twin boys.  The reactions make the difficult trip to stores worth it lol.

Two days ago at my doctors appointment I was able to talk my doctor into an induction date. Yes, I know natural is best, and if you would have asked me my last two pregnancies I would have gave you a 20min lecture on the harm of induction and blah blah but this is different. I have two big ass babies in here, but my sanity aside, the real reason is concern for the boys parents getting here on time. I have fast labors, they live 7 hours away and I would be so upset if I delivered these boys and their mom and dad missed it all. So we unless the twins come earlier, our induction date is April 11^th 2014. That day is also my (3^rd) 25^th birthday! I think it would be so amazing to share a birthday with my little surro boys! Just something special we will have, just us three. Its something to remember each other by each year. I just love it. But if they want to come a week or two earlier, I am okay with that too lol.

(S) and (T) and I text a few times a week, usually updating them on doctors appointments. I feel we won’t have much of a relationship after this is over, but I am okay with that too. We have nothing but admiration and respect for each other but were just so different, not to mention the 20 year age difference that there is no need to force a lifelong friendship or anything. I’d still email here and there and would love to see pictures here and there and see how beautiful these boys grow over the years. Next Surro Journey I want to ensure that there is also a friendship the can flourish, I love hearing my surro sisters bond with their Intended Parents.

Well I guess that will do for now. Time to go finish watching my investigation shows and maybe, just maybe actually do my hair today rather than throw a hat on and call it a day. Please enjoy these pictures of The Belly over the last few weeks.

31 weeks

32 weeks

33 weeks