Okay so I have come to terms that I suck at keeping this
thing updated! I will keep on trying, I swear. So we are 2dp5dt, I feel so cool
using surrogate terms, in English that means I am 2 days past the transfer of a
5 day old embryos. I will start at the beginning…
So we finally got the dates about 3 weeks ago, I was told
the official transfer date would be August 5th 2013. It eventually
was pushed back just one day to the 6th. I can’t tell you how excited I was, I mean, after
a year of planning and prepping and thinking and wondering…we had an actual
date!! They retrieved 29...yes..
TWENTY-NINE eggs from the donor and from that batch almost all of them were
progressing great! So on Monday the 5th my mother and I packed our
bags and took the short hour flight down to San Diego. I took my mom as my
companion for a few reasons but the main one was that we really wanted to keep
my daughters lives as normal as possible so it was best if hunnie stayed with
the girls the three days I was gone. The flight was very surreal just thinking THIS IS IT! We landed and checked into
our fabulous hotel. My brother lives down there so we had a great lunch with
him and then later that night we had dinner at the IP’s house. We talked and
had a great time. The highlight of the night was when we talked about hearing
the fetal heart beat in a few weeks and (T) began to tear up. It just made it
all so special. Though it was strange
that they had no idea they could come and be with me during the transfer the
following day while I expected them to be there as it is THEIR moment. They
were overjoyed that they could come and we bid farewell until early morning.
Then came TRANSFER DAY! We woke up bright and early, got
ready and headed over SDFC. We got checked in and a few minutes later (S) and
(T) walked in. We hugged and I think we were all nervous and anxious about the
transfer. The nurse called me back and we went over a few papers and then she
called in my mom and the IPs. The Embryologist brought in pictures of our two
little buddies. In total they had 10 perfect embryos to choose from. After a
little bit more waiting the doctor and nurse came in, we verified names and we
got to watch the embryos in the lab on a TV screen. Very cool to watch them
move around and think of the beautiful babies they will become. They turned off
the lights, got me all set up and brought in the little buddies. It was a very
simple procedure, maybe 2 minutes in total. We watched on the ultrasound
machine and they placed the two embryos in their future home. It was a
beautiful moment (T) who was by my side began to cry, (S) smiled and supportively
rubbed her back, then I began to cry and my mom began to cry. We all cried. I
cried thinking about the struggle (T) has gone through for so many years. The
heart ache and sadness, the worthlessness and battles she has been through, the
yearning and need for a child to call her own and love, all of that came to a
beautiful end in that moment. That is
why I am doing this; for her, for him, for these babies, for them to have a
family to grow together and love each other with every ounce of their hearts. The
nurse flicked the lights on and everyone congratulated (S) and (T) and me, we
all hugged and the IPs made their departure. The doctors had me lay flat on my
back for 30 minutes and told me to take it easy the rest of the day. And that
we did! My mom and I had a great breakfast at the hotel and we went back up to
our room and I took a much needed nap. We went out to dinner with my brother,
his girlfriend and their friend that night and had an amazing time. My brother
and his friend arranged for the dessert to come out with a chocolate “Congrats
x2” I thought that was so special of them. The night was perfect. I went to
sleep later that night with little buddies on my mind, wishing them to find a
cozy spot and stick.
The next day was the day we came home, we had a fabulous
lunch with a family friend and then hit the airport. It was so strange, I am
now pregnant! Granted, I am well aware that it is very possible that the
pregnancy will not take and we will have to do this again. But I am an optimist
and I trust that my body knows exactly what to do and that BOTH these babies
will stick around and keep me company the next 9 months.
Today I am feeling very tired, and every smell is bothering
me. I know it is very soon but I am going to embrace these symptoms and hope it
is pointing us to a great end result. Of course I have taken at home tests.
Everything I read says that a positive test won’t happen for another 4-5 days
but I am impatient! Last nights, as expected did not show a positive. This is
no way upset me or made me even question what is going on in there because I am
well aware that I will continue to get negatives for a few more days while the
babies implant and then the HGC levels reach my blood. However, the one I took
this morning did have a very faint extra blue line. So faint the camera would
not quite show it but my daughter, hunnie and I can for sure see it! It is exciting
but it is too faint for me to get super excited just yet. You better believe I will
be in the bathroom as soon as I wake up tomorrow ready to take another!
Hopefully it is dark enough for me to post a picture of it.
I know I have said it before but I have to say it again, I am
overwhelmed by the amount of love and support I am receiving. The IPs are so
happy to know that their babies will be growing in such a loving environment
surrounded but such amazing people. Thank you all for your kind words, support,
curiosity and well wishes. It means the world to me, the babies, the IPs and my
family.
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pictures!
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