Limbo and a surro-friend

It has been a few days since my last update, but so far there is not much to update. There are so many parts and pieces to surrogacy that all need to turn in order to bring it all together. I have read through many other blogs that the beginning stages of surrogacy, the surrogate is left in limbo. That is where I am, just awaiting the next email or phone call with directions on what papers to sign next or my next steps. Most recently I filled out a health insurance application so beginning of next month I will be covered by a surrogate supportive insurance company. I also signed the contract and other forms and papers. Nothing to exciting! In addition to paper work, the Hunnie and I are on a great diet and working hard to lose weight and get healthy before I pack on the baby weight!

I had a dream last night that I gave birth to a beautiful baby and was so filled with happiness when I placed the baby in IP-moms (T) hands. I can’t wait for that day, to make (T) and (S) parents, AMAZING!

Oh! I guess there is something pretty exciting. Through a total coincidence, it turns out a close family friend of ours is also applying to be a surrogate! It was such a pleasant surprise when we both figured out the other was going to also be a surrogate! We are both keeping things very “hush-hush” as we have not told our families and are both a bit worried about our family’s reaction to this. But how cool is that!? Pregnancy is a lonely time as it is, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE being pregnant but it’s something that your husband or others cannot relate to as the changes and feelings are only occurring within the pregnant woman. So I would imagine that surrogate pregnancy would be even more of an isolated feeling. Especially if family or friends are not supportive (something we worry about with our families).  But it will be great to have a fellow surrogate to confide in and talk to about the process and feelings that will occur during this journey, but more importantly the feelings that come AFTER the birth. I feel that having another surro-mommy to talk to about the tough after birth feelings and who will truly understand the feelings, will be a great help!  Currently she is awaiting I.P’s, crossing my fingers she gets snatched up as fast as I did!

Okay well enough procrastinating, I have finals to complete today – wish me luck and hunnie is out for the day so I have to hyper kids (who’s recent pastime is fighting over one toy among the room FILLED to the brim with toys) all to myself while trying to do these finals! Hehe. Until next time...kisses and belly rubs to all the other surro-mommys out there making families and creating love!

The I.P meeting

I meant to update my blog earlier but this weekend was so jam packed with our anniversary and Super Bowl (I think hunnie is still crying about the 49er loss)but this last Saturday the 2^nd we met with our I.P’s for the first time. I really was not too nervous. I just did not know what to expect! I didn’t know how much to share, how deep our conversation should go, should it be just surface stuff like hobbies and jobs or should we get down to the nitty-gritty and talk fetus’ and hormone shots?  But alas, the nerves set in as I was strapping on my heels and asking hunnie “does this outfit say ‘I can carry your baby?’” he laughed and assured me I looked great. As we pulled up to the restaurant and parked that’s when I started to panic. What was I panicking about you ask? I did not know if I should hug them or shake their hand! I mean, they are strangers so a hug might seem too much for a first meeting, on the other hand they are going to impregnate me so a hug seems very minimal compared to that! We got in the restaurant before they did and I nervously stared out the window trying to desperately remember what they look like from the picture they sent. After what seemed like hours (really just 5mins but in the land of nerves that’s a long time!) I saw them approaching. As soon as (T) walked in she immediately reached and gave me a big hug and that instantly calmed all my nerves. We sat and had breakfast, we talked about all the normal stuff, hobbies, jobs, family, even dabbled in the recent gun controversy. It flowed great. I am so thankful for hunnie because he was able to keep the conversation flowing mainly with the ins and outs of his job which (T) and (S) seemed to have a lot in common with. I would have loved to talk more but I’m a stay at home mom, my hobbies include playing Barbies and potty training, my job is dishes and prying small objects from babies mouth…non of which is interesting topics to talk about especially to a couple who do not have kids haha. After breakfast we went to coffee and the conversation switched to deeper things like diet and nutrition during pregnancy. They were very impressed and pleased with my belief in natural med-free birth and healthy organic eating while pregnant. (T) ended the day with tears in her eyes, telling me how amazing it is for them to think that they can one day soon have a child and a family of their own. She told me what an amazing person I am to do this for them and that I will always have a place of honor with their family.

Hunnie and I left with big smiles on our faces. This is what is meant to happen.  They are amazing beautiful people and I want so bad to give them this wonderful gift of a child of their own. They will make amazing parents and there is no doubt in my mind that this baby will be loved and provided for. I just hope they loved us as much as we loved them! Now it is time to get serious and diet and get healthy! The summer and holidays packed on the pounds haha now it is time to loose weight so I can get all fat and preggers soon!